Friday, September 3, 2010

Already screwing with my mind

September 03, 2010
Another Friday, and another morning lost for words. I am just tired. Wednesday night Natalie was up in the early hours of the morning crying and upset. We think she is really starting the teething stage, at least I hope that this is the problem. It is so hard now, worrying about every little pattern, wondering what the problem is now. Sometimes she cannot be comforted. Sometimes she just wants to be held. I think I created a monster because when I put her down to sleep I will hold her in my arms and walk her around until she starts to breathe heavily, but that wreaks havoc on my back (she’s starting to get heavy, 16 pounds), and when I cannot do it we just put her down in her crib, and boy she doesn’t like that. She is spoiled, this I understand, but it leads to an odd conundrum.

The debate in question: is it appropriate to teach your baby to self soothe when she is in pain? I don’t think so, but the problem is that we don’t know when she is really in pain, or when she just wants our attention. Little stinker, she is already screwing with my mind. I don’t know if it will be any easier when she can communicate, but I really wish I knew what is hurting her. I can’t wait for the day when she can tell me what is wrong so I can try to fix it.

Needless to say, we didn’t sleep well Wednesday, and last night was spent preparing the guest room for Nadine, Jakki’s old friend now living in Florida. It was a tedious task that led into the late hours. When I crashed at midnight, I literally crashed. If Natalie had issues last night, I didn’t hear them. Hopefully Jakki did, she came into bed well after me.

So, I am pretty tired now and struggling to think straight. My last class for my Masters Degree is adding to the mix, with an inappropriate amount of coursework and stress for an elective class. I am pushing to get that wrapped up as well.

We took Natalie out grocery shopping after work yesterday. It is amazing how much attention she draws in from complete strangers. Natalie didn’t notice though, she was focused on trying to get to the pretzels through the bag. She was eating the bag, wondering what that force field was that was keeping the pretzels from getting in her mouth.

All for now.

~ Nathan

1 comment:

  1. Look at her gumlines...if you see little bulges and little whitecaps, then, yep...you've got a teether on hand! My kids didn't sprout teeth until they were almost a year. It sounds like she's doing all rightt. And yes...it is prefectly okay to let her cry it out. Sometimes there is absolutely nothing that can be done and they just have to get it out. With Lauren, we would check on her, but not say a word, except "Night. night." and then leave.

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